A simple life?

Monday, February 12, 2007

Shit man. I'm like a chinchilla. I freaking can't sleep at night now. Its like going back to the old days. I really wana go back to normal life. Being able to sleep peacefully. Its been i don't know how long since i had a good nights rest, meaning no dreams and not being awake half-consciously.

Talking about chinchillas. I had 2 of them when i was in P6. They both died. Now, my gf is gona buy this cute little boy called Benson. Will show some pics! She now made me gian of buying a chin. Shit man. If i keep feeling the gianness, i'll just trip and buy one. Not cheap leh. Nice ones costs like $700 - $1400. PLUS, afternoon must on aircon for them if not they'll get heatstroke. If only singapore was like cooling. Can wear long sleeve. Can wear nice nice jacket. Can wear whats that thing that Jose Mourinho wears, shit man i don't know. Can keep chinchillas!

If only i had like plenty of money and my own room(will come to that later). I wana buy many books and comics and place them all nicely.

I always longed for my own room. Right now, my room is the living room and my bed is my beloved sofa. Imagine got own room, wahhh. Will keep it nice and tidy. Will buy a big nice bookshelf. Will get a nice comfy bed. With the com in the room. A Hi-fi set. Many books and comics. A nice little altar. Anime posters on the wall. Cards which my gf made for me all on the wall. Stuff which my gf bought for me can be nicely placed in a glass cabinet. The no smoking sign which jon and us took can be on the wall. With the 2nd and 3rd storey metal plates too of course. A nice little ashtray. A comfy computer chair. Aircon. A nice condusive study table with self help books and like good reading material on it. A small cupboard to put my clothes in. WAH. Song boh. Actually if i wanted my own room, i have 2 places to go. But its not where i call home. Hai. Life quite complicating at times. You see two choices in front of you. One : A nice big house with your own room and aircon and all that shit, but only emptyness and loneliness fills the place. Two : No own room, no bed, no aircon, no whatever shit but love fills the place. I guess material stuff really come in second compared to what is intangible.

I realise that i'm just babbling non stop on the keyboard. I still can't sleep.

Time for a smoke.